Saturday, October 21, 2006
haha first thing: the photo as promised. yes, spot yours truly if you can. [hint: i was skinnier then and chen hanwei had the coolest hairstyle]
so i guess youre saying if you do take up the SAF scholarship, youll be in the army/navy/airforce for the rest of your life? heh, that sounds like a good steady job. but are you very very sure thats what you really want. if im to be dead honest, hahaha i cannot imagine you doing that. and YES if youre not married by 45, we can go backpacking. haha, i wld give up marriage for my backpacking dream...so my husband-to-be [or-not] had better be an avid traveller as well. haha thats a sidetrack, more sidetracking. somedays i sit and think that i wld really really love to take about 3-5 years off, and jt simply walk arnd the world. havent you ever thought of wanting to visit places like easter island, galapagos islands!, spend a white christmas in the american countryside, go trek in moutain paths in canada, go see the victoria falls, walk thru the amazon jungle, witness the great pyramids of egypt, see the pathenon, go to poverty-striken areas to measure the worth of your life against theirs, walk thru the city of jerusalem to see the place that sparked off the crusades, be a visitor to the rural villages of china to attempt to see how our ancestors lived their lives, before spending some time slacking arnd on beautiful beaches in hawaii, perhaps even join in the tomato festival in southern america. there's so much to see and do...and dont you get that feeling that if you dont see as much as you can, it isnt a life worth living? one day, just one day.
okay, finished sidetracking! hahaha, okay why dont you jt sign up for the scholarship first and see how? :D hahaha. im too hyped up to give proper advice now.
and yeah, the grass is always greener on the other side. we had this class discussion once, about how having the liberty to make personal choices jt give up the chance to regret. which is pretty true, isnt it? if i hadnt had to choose between vj and hwachong, i wldnt have regretted much? jt like how i didnt have any say when i was put into scgs for 10years. i wldnt deny that hwachong has enabled me to grow academically..my chances of getting 4As and getting into med school is most probably higher, but over the course of 2 years, my personal character devt, emotional quotient seems to have deterioted tremendously. somedays i get scared, because i seemed to have forgotten how to interact with people, because most pple arent worth the interaction. too insincere, too fake, too politically-correct. hwachong bball this year has been the only saving grace out of the 2 years. for those months we spent trng hard for comps, gosh, i was so happy. because there was finally a sense of belonging, a connection with you guys. and one day if i shld look back on my hc days, you guys will most probably be the only reminder. and this goes on to how life is fair, isnt it? bball in j1 killed me, bball in j2 revived me. haha.
we're fast approaching the crucial crossroads in our lives, lets make sure we dont make any more mistakes.
and thats true, what if we cant hear what our hearts are saying? we need an op-amp! ha.ha.ha
what a long long post. off to play computer games! :D haha
10:25 AM
JQuah took a shot at 10:25 AM
